Do what makes you happy. That’s been my daily mantra over the past few months.
I had spaghetti for breakfast. That’s what made me happy this morning. It was either carb loading or an actual run – obviously I elected to eat spaghetti… if you’ve ever tried my mom’s spaghetti, you’d understand why.
Today would’ve been our three year anniversary. We were only able to celebrate our first, by our second year he already had one foot out the door. I thought I’d be more upset than I am but I’m not. I do feel a dull pain but it’s nothing I can’t manage. Today is like any other day. In fact I’ll go to work, study with my cousin and hopefully grab some dinner with my sissy later tonight. I’ve been extremely anxious about it this past week. I dreamt of my ex almost every night since the beginning of the month. It must have been the anticipation of the date more than anything. In this moment I don’t feel the need to reminisce, I know what an amazing day it was and I’m okay with leaving it at that.
It’s days like today that I have to consistently remind myself of all the great memories that I’ve had in just a short period of time. It’s barely been a year, that’s chump change in the grand scheme of things but it’s the daily efforts that matter.
On the flip side, Socrates brings up an excellent point. I need to focus all of my energy on building on the new. There are so many people in my life that I’ve grown closer to, there are others that I’ve been able to reconnect with and a huge group that I probably would’ve never met unless all this happened.
my new life > my old one